What are you doing differently if you are not content, happy with how you are or your situations are?

I am a thinker and a doer for sure. I believe that nothing is powerless or beyond our reach. If we as human wants to change it, mould it and make it work for us.

The fear we do not have enough kill us and handicap us in trying new things, exploring or making changes.

Our first and foremost reaction to any major change if we want to do is that we will be rejected by society, friends and family. We often deny the soul call for merely this reason.

let me give you an example here if you really want to be debt free in 2 to 5 years time. What do you need to do? It’s simple but hard to start with start seeing where is your money flowing?

If it is on want then it is a good news you can have more control on that.

I promised myself last year not going to buy things at all for myself in the sale or otherwise if I do not need it and I did that. But now I want not to buy anything for myself until September, if not needed.

So you see how I am breaking it down slowly.

I started writing my expenses each day to see where it is flowing, what I cannot cut down and is necessary and what I can cut down which is just a want.

I am not scared in downsizing anything anymore if needed and not scared of losing friends or family either because people who truly loves me will be part of me and once they understand my choices, will support me too.

Same with Health. I decided in my 20’s that I need to take control of my health. I invested in best education, books, people to help me understand that but I cut down on socialising and buying clothes to fit in.

My weekends use to go for working in a Gym and a health store to get money for what I really need to do.

I am in my best shape, brain and spiritual path now in my late 40’s.

I am the same woman who once thought in 20’s hiking having coffee on the mountain with your loved one is a dream which is not for me when someone suggested me during my first pregnancy. Can you see how we ourselves can limit our dreams and potential?

I slowly, patiently understood that everything lies within us and if its a good purpose we get all the support and energy from right people, universe.

I need money to live what I need and to do charity work too and this makes me more powerful and focuses on how to get there.

The discomfort and uneasiness will pass through too, you just need to hold on there. Human is very flexible and highly adaptable to any situation and circumstances.

Some of the major decision which I am going to make will have definitely affect on people around me but then if they truly can see me, my passion and why I am doing it they will accept me and support me.

I am lucky to have a life partner who is open for all this. We both tries our best in our own way.

So what do I really want to achieve?

I need to be mortgage free.

I need to start living a life which is more meaningful and worth without spending in unnecessary things.

I need good books, good coaches and mentor in my life.

I need to deliver my services with high values and standard.

Any money which will be surplus will go for some animal causes.

I need to eat well and look after my health till I die. It’s solely my responsibility.

I need to know that I am powerful, influential and a game changer in my life and I am willingly embracing discomfort and are patience for it to come on my way.

Each day reflect and see how it can be done better or more fruitful the other day.

Ending my talk here with this beautiful line of

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

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